I try to remain optimistic, but unfortunately living in the west means a society where despite things turning worse and worse due to the various contradictions of capitalism and the liberal democratic system... the people embrace fascism en masse. That and the liberal and fash race to the bottom and world war 3 - both sides convinced the other is weak and would back down at a certain point of the escalation. Or at least the narrative is shifted to make it seem so and drive leftists into despair.

It's all so tiresome.

What helps me is trying to understand all these processes by making myself familiar with theory.

If I'm going to get thrown into the woodchipper as a dirty foreigner on the Heimat of the German Volk, I'd like to at least understand how it happened.

It's a dark, depressing and entertaining (in a dark humor way) world, but living and resisting it becomes a thing done of spite. And the small displays of solidarity, such as listening to healthcare workers my mother knows start praising labor unions at an unpolitical social event without me having said a word all evening or being visibly leftist in any way, does bring a smile to one's soul.

It makes you think that a better world, as far away as we are from it at this moment, is not an impossibility.