She started showing up when I was around 16 (late 30s now.) I only see her like twice a year but every time I do the dreams are so intense I spend the next day in that sort of distorted state where I can't quite shake how real it was. Every time I see her I recognize her instantly in my dreams and we have such an overwhelming connection, stronger then I've ever experienced in real life. She feels right, like a mythical soulmate.
I've felt since the first time I saw her that she's a real person. She's beautiful but like real person beautiful not Hollywood, and she's aged along with me. I can't shake the feeling the that I'm supposed to find her, like our souls are connected from some past life. I of course have no idea how so in a couple of days she'll fade to the back of my mind again, showing up only in stray thoughts till she pops up in my dreams again months later.
Idk I'm just a little worked up today and wanted to share with people who might not think I'm crazy.
Wow sorry that you got so worked up about it, I had a similar experience starting 20 years ago and ending about 8 years ago when i started to transition. I did some additional workings specifically to interact with the dreamed person, tarot, scrying, meditation, and shadow work which brought me to the realization that the person i was dreaming was me.
Not to say that is what you are experiencing rather to relate on the power of such an intense, and frankly, intimate dream experience. Unsure of what else you use in your practice but maybe utilizing other tools, techniques, etc. to try and learn more and develop the connection. May also be a good reason to try and develop lucid dreaming. Thanks for posting I've never heard of someone having a recurring intense dream that was more positive slanted involving a person so wanted to comment.
I read the cards so rarely and I'm so it of sorts I hadn't even thought of that. I've explored my gender enough I'm fairly sure she isn't some hidden self but it is really cool that you were able to meet your true self that way.