She started showing up when I was around 16 (late 30s now.) I only see her like twice a year but every time I do the dreams are so intense I spend the next day in that sort of distorted state where I can't quite shake how real it was. Every time I see her I recognize her instantly in my dreams and we have such an overwhelming connection, stronger then I've ever experienced in real life. She feels right, like a mythical soulmate.

I've felt since the first time I saw her that she's a real person. She's beautiful but like real person beautiful not Hollywood, and she's aged along with me. I can't shake the feeling the that I'm supposed to find her, like our souls are connected from some past life. I of course have no idea how so in a couple of days she'll fade to the back of my mind again, showing up only in stray thoughts till she pops up in my dreams again months later.

Idk I'm just a little worked up today and wanted to share with people who might not think I'm crazy.

  • EnsignRedshirt [he/him]
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    1 year ago

    I once fell in love in a dream. The details were as hazy and dreamlike as you'd expect, I doubt I ever really had a grasp on them, but I remember meeting someone, spending time with her, getting to know one another, and having the feeling of forming a genuine bond.

    What really sticks in my mind is the memory of walking her to a subway station so she could catch a train back to her place. I think we lived in Toronto, and it was autumn, leaves falling and slight chill in the air kind of thing. I hugged her, she got on the train, I turned to walk home not thinking much of it because it was all quite mundane, but then it all sort of faded away and I woke up. The realization that it was a dream was genuinely devastating. It made me sad for days. Even 20 years later, happily married with a family, I still occasionally think about it.

    It would be easy enough to assume that it was the result of some unusual combination neurotransmitters and brain cells firing, but it was as real to me as anything. Whether there's anything else going on is up for speculation, but I guess what I would want you to know is that you're probably not alone in this kind of experience.

    I hope you find her.