She started showing up when I was around 16 (late 30s now.) I only see her like twice a year but every time I do the dreams are so intense I spend the next day in that sort of distorted state where I can't quite shake how real it was. Every time I see her I recognize her instantly in my dreams and we have such an overwhelming connection, stronger then I've ever experienced in real life. She feels right, like a mythical soulmate.
I've felt since the first time I saw her that she's a real person. She's beautiful but like real person beautiful not Hollywood, and she's aged along with me. I can't shake the feeling the that I'm supposed to find her, like our souls are connected from some past life. I of course have no idea how so in a couple of days she'll fade to the back of my mind again, showing up only in stray thoughts till she pops up in my dreams again months later.
Idk I'm just a little worked up today and wanted to share with people who might not think I'm crazy.
I have never irl felt the kind of intense and overwhelming romantic love that I have felt in dreams. I've only had those dreams 3 times in my life and I'm not young, so they're super rare. The first time was more than 20 years ago though. Each time, when I woke up, I was horrified that it was only a dream and I had "lost" the person I loved. I literally cried. It was like I had to go through the mourning process for days or even weeks after the dream, having to accept that it wasn't actually real. I never felt like it was a person I had to find irl so much as like it was a memory from a past life I'll never live again. I don't actually believe in past lives, but that's how it felt.