Noticed that I am extremely tuned out of media discussions bc of Maoism-Autism 
, but that sometimes I need to engage products, because I can't be picky about the battlefields. Vidya was a maladaptive coping mechanism for [fun and exciting] childhood 
for me, so I view old stuff with a distorted perspective and new stuff, I neither have the money nor the time for anything RPG or timesink wise. Same for anime, shows, movies and other stuff.
Now I don't want to be left out of these convos (Read: Struggle sessions about the cultural meaning of thing X or Y) entirely but is there any way to get back up on what a cultural product was about, preferably in-depth and critically?
I see. Most people around me have taken the grillpill about entertainment. I tried exposing myself to stuff I found was silly and wrong but it is a lot of effort, especially as a side hustle so I hoped somebody else did that for things already. And I of course know how to do struggle sessions without being too mean. Like I personally think people prefer when I say my honest opinion instead of keeping silent. I will not say "you are a nazi fo watching this", but I want to change people's minds and patiently waiting for me to land a position where I can do this perfectly is worse than telling them what I think (without being an ass)
If you think you can walk that line, go for it. As a fellow neorudivergent person who often gets too focused on being right, I've had to very consciously learn that I'm usually better off not starting shit on this front, because it's not actually being received the way I feel it should. I do make my opinions known - I'm an extremely vocal communist - but I don't press it in conversations where it isn't warranted. Part of bonding with people is putting up with their annoying interests that you find pointless, droll, or brainrot. My wife loves complete garbage reality TV. She knows I don't like it and think it's literally bad for her brain, but I don't go off every time it's on.
I am in a place where I could pick some friends who are understanding. They get the emotional effort. I generally feel most people who are not ND or trans will just hate my ass anyway, so I don't owe them more than not being mean. I guess I do have to pick things apart one by one. I just was looking for some ressources of angry culture nerds who already transcriped and organized every single line of Fallout 4 dialogue or something I guess, lol
I sensed a kindred spirit and thought an argument might be more productive than answering your question, unlike with normals
I am in angry space ngl. Not bc of you, more got reminded that people hated my guts and will continue to do so and it's on me to fix my issues
I've been there and it was the advice I'm giving you here (among other things) that helped me do just that. But you still have a right to your anger; just be healthy with it.
yeah, yeah. I think it boiled to some conviction that society will not accept me and adapting to them is rewarding them for their bullying, so I always prefered being able to humiliate and hurt opponents in arguments. Something this site is no stranger to.
Even most NT people are constantly twisting themselves into knots to be the person society expects them too, though their pretzel isn't as knotted. A little bit of that is healthy, really - prosocial behavior it's fundamentally about compromise. But it's easy, especially for ND people, to get way too twisted
I am not completely rejecting social stuff, but I do it on my terms. none of their cruel little social games anymore where it ends up in bullying somebody.