Idk what to do. I might be trans, might just be someone who wants to look cute and I can't tell the difference anymore. Also permanently transitioning will come at great personal cost and might be a unique safety issue. Also I never had any dysphoric thoughts before 26-27y of age. I'm 31 now I've lived most of my life as a straight man maybe just keep going lmao. But I do have gender envy for days. Point being why now. Also it'll break my mother's heart if she so much as sees me in a skirt. Dad's too lol. Say what you will about 'that's on them, not your problem, transphobes bad' I can't help but love and care about them, they've really tried as parents. they're just heavily indoctrinated old ppl with calcified brains.

  • 🏳️‍⚧️ 新星 [she/they]@lemmygrad.ml
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    2 months ago

    Here's some reflection after the fact. Hated puberty. Hated getting hair all over. Never felt like a man, always a boy. Never really enjoyed penetrative sex, always felt weird to me

    Relate so much to this. Probably the biggest proof to shut up my lingering egg denial...

    the joy I feel being myself is worth it

    I'm glad you've finally been able to become who you are!

    • rayne [she/her]
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      2 months ago

      Thanks! I scheduled an appointment to look at starting hormones. I'm very lucky to have Medicare and good gender affirming care through my health care conglomerate. Only have to wait 19 more days for the appointment!