I noticed a trend in some online interview show recently where hosts ask guests to bark like a dog. I really bristle at that, it would be tough to convince me you don't want to just laugh at me.
I went to Ren Faire for the first time recently, and had a hard time picking an outift to wear because I didn't want to stand out as no-fun, or as being enthusiastic but failing in execution. once I was there of course it was easy to see what an appropriate outfit is.
anyone had similar experiences/thoughts? I realized that I'm averse to being intentionally silly.
it feels like I've had to work hard in my life to not be unintentionally silly or weird (masking), so situations that ask "hey, be weird" leave me very guarded at first.
My mom used to slap my hand when I stimmed. It didn't work, so she'd just hold my hand and tell me to calm down lol.
Even so, I still imagine getting slapped on the hands when I get self conscious about my more obvious stims. That's how I remembered she use to do that lol.