i live with my parents right now, and i often have thoughts that they are tired of me and going to have me killed or something.
my mom tells me she loves me all the time but i always feel like theres some secret resentment that im still around.
idk i just wish i wasnt so scared all the time.
it sucks living like this
At least what worked for me was a simple thought exercise.
If what I’m experiencing is so unbearable I’d rather be dead, what have I got to lose trying to get some help. If it doesn’t work I can still kill myself, it’s not like trying to get help and failing would make me immortal.
Silly as it sounds, when I thought about it this way the idea of getting help didn’t seem so scary anymore.