I haven't felt anything besides low burning self contempt for years. Emotions like sadness and happiness elude me. I haven't sincerely shouted for joy or wept in years. I also have no desire to get close to other people and form relationships. This makes it nigh impossible for me to give a shit about even important things. While I don't feel much pain anymore, I also lack the spark that makes life worth living. I feel like a soulless automaton.

Does this sound like it's related to neurodivergence? I'm 100% depressed, but years of therapy and various different medications haven't done much, so I feel like there must be more to it.

  • mathemachristian [he/him]
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    8 days ago

    I'm not gonna waste my energy dissecting all that, like the gall of claiming I was projecting my "mood" into everything and then admitting you spoke "authoritatively" about another users mental health because you have ADHD and then writing a huge post telling ME, who you already knew has ADD, what the life of someone with ADHD looks like, again based on what you and your three friends have in common, is just stupid enough to leave on its own without getting into the details of how and which ADHD tropes you just kept regurgitating uncritically and positing them as fact.

    But here you are, making judgments about me based off of a few dozen words -

    Like yeah, you showed how much of a patronizing ass you are in just a few dozen words and I made a judgement based on that. You didn't have to write this whole essay to prove it.

    This bits funny tho

    I've personally read the DSM-5 cover to cover.

    very-smart

    I don't claim to be a medical expert

    Nah you just want to talk with the authority of one

    and I retained almost none of it except for what was relevant to me and the people close to me.

    Then what good was pointing out you read the DSM-5 cover to cover i-cant

    Humblebragging is not being humble lol