EFFORT POST
Fuuuuuuuuuck. Am I being too “all or nothing” about this?
After holding my third corporate job (for going on 6 months now), it’s all the fucking same. And it’s going to be damn hard to convince me otherwise. Always a fucking business started by some CEO whose parents are rich, and they say there’s an opportunity to make your way up the ladder and other opportunities for career growth (devoting your entire existence to capital in this squid game esque way is truly draconian but I digress), though funny how they don’t mention all the nepotistic hierarchies in between which are akin to high school cliques. Seems like such a brazenly obvious (and extremely normalized) pyramid scheme. But hey, you get nearly a six figure salary for producing 0 value to any humans whatsoever in the computer touching factory because someone is in the position to shuffle around capital. But don’t you talk about a raise unless it’s the year end! You have to know that you’re paid based on the very real idea of “market value.”
Then you have service workers, care takers, social workers and the like. Since those careers are not contributing to the L I N E in any meaningful way (though it’s becoming more common with the plague on humanity that is private equity), they pay a lot less. I don’t know if there is enough evidence to say that it’s a “punishment” by capitalists or whatever, but I’m starting to think that it really doesn’t matter.
You reframe it in both contexts though, and it’s exactly that. If you pay a computer-toucher significantly more than someone caring for humans in the world, the value judgment could not be more clear. I don’t know why I’m acting surprised, I lived through Covid and saw these people (who undeniably showed their importance) being shat on relentlessly. There’s stuff I’ve been trying to unsee for years and I just fucking can’t anymore. Talk about man-made horrors beyond your comprehension
I need to bite the bullet and get the fuck out but how the hell do you enter the biggest phase of change in your life when you follow the same patterns each and every day?
It depends on what you mean specifically by ND as this is an umbrella term that encompasses every sort of atypicality in brain function, but let's just go with it:
I think it's about finding a niche. You know what you can't tolerate, and that's a critically important step. Honestly it's really overlooked when it comes to finding a career because it's at least as important for your job to be tolerable as it is enjoyable or rewarding or whatever.
I doubt it would be very commonplace but if you had a phobia of blood and you worked as a phlembotomist then you're doing to have a hellish time in your line of work. If you cannot tolerate seeing animals suffer then you're going to have a difficult time working as a vet. I suppose the seeing the neglect would be worse but I'm not sure. If you have very little patience then you're going to struggle as a childcare worker or a grade school teacher. And so on.
So maybe it's worth mapping out both your strengths/passions and your needs/conditions you can't tolerate. With this you would be able to form a picture and use that to figure out what best maps onto a suitable job for you. From there it's about qualifications, experience, and connections but a clear direction is going to make all of that so much easier.