Final Fantasy 7 inspired my views on anti-capitalism, anarchy, direct action, and was just such a thought provoking title for the time. Around the late 90s, I also discovered KMFDM, which is my favorite band with music that touches on similar themes.
I grew up poor, discarded, sometimes homeless. I loved arcades growing up. A place for community, art, and technology, all passions of mine.
Adulthood has been kinder to me and I've found modest material success in my life after much, much hardship.
I just wanted to share this as I feel triumphant and accomplished. This is likely going to be my most prized worldly possession, so I honor those that implanted the ideals so important to me today, and I would just like to share the artwork with the community. The idea is to represent the flow of time with the game as well as the music. Of course, an appearance by Anarchist Santa is a must. His works changed my life.
It's an axiom. Family to me has been those who stuck by me, not those with DNA ties, but those with substance. It also means our bodies will die, our atoms will scatter, our possessions break, but what matters really? The substance.
It's there to remind me do not get wrapped up in this possession, but treasure the time spent with family and friends playing it.
Also, a deeper meaning of substance also meaning my psychedelics. Those substances are very profound, and you lose your ego and sense of self. What matters always is substance, not materialism.
It took me a long time to develop that axiom. There's so many aspects to it. The semicolon is intentional. In my life's story, I have survived so many things, but someone close to me did not. It's a reminder to remember him. He was the one who protected me as a child when my parents did not. He showed me the way of life, how to truly be a man in a non-toxic way. We spent time together in arcades as a child. It's just a little homage because I miss him everyday.
I was trying to be a bit silly, not to mock your thing there.
Sounds you've been on a long journey to get where you are now, it shaped you to the person you're right now.
Keep building on those dreams and love the people that are close to you!
I just got a cup of coffee and I'll toast to your friend that you lost. I'm hoping they're in a better place now and in peace.
Stay strong and awesome, my dude!
I appreciate the sentiment and clarity. He was my mother's cousins husband, but he treated me like a son right up to his death. NGL, it fucked me up good. But it made me take mental health seriously and now I'm writing a book about everything.
He was an awesome guy. A true forward thinker, for me into computers in the 80s through a love of games. Eventually I turned that into the career in Cybersecurity I have today. It wasn't easy. Homelessness, heroin addiction, abusive narcissistic parents who were Christian fundamentalists. He was more like a Frank Zappa kind of personality. He idolized Zappa and John Lennon. Truly a special individual, but he didn't take care of his mental health and in the end, it got him.
So I remember him and the foundation of my life that he laid. I owe him everything. He took me and my mother in when we fled from my father. Just truly awful stuff, my father the monster.
I have chapter 1 written. It's hard to dive into all of that, but it's necessary. It'll help people once it's all written and structured well.