I appreciate the sentiment and clarity. He was my mother's cousins husband, but he treated me like a son right up to his death. NGL, it fucked me up good. But it made me take mental health seriously and now I'm writing a book about everything.
He was an awesome guy. A true forward thinker, for me into computers in the 80s through a love of games. Eventually I turned that into the career in Cybersecurity I have today. It wasn't easy. Homelessness, heroin addiction, abusive narcissistic parents who were Christian fundamentalists. He was more like a Frank Zappa kind of personality. He idolized Zappa and John Lennon. Truly a special individual, but he didn't take care of his mental health and in the end, it got him.
So I remember him and the foundation of my life that he laid. I owe him everything. He took me and my mother in when we fled from my father. Just truly awful stuff, my father the monster.
I have chapter 1 written. It's hard to dive into all of that, but it's necessary. It'll help people once it's all written and structured well.
It's an axiom. Family to me has been those who stuck by me, not those with DNA ties, but those with substance. It also means our bodies will die, our atoms will scatter, our possessions break, but what matters really? The substance.
It's there to remind me do not get wrapped up in this possession, but treasure the time spent with family and friends playing it.
Also, a deeper meaning of substance also meaning my psychedelics. Those substances are very profound, and you lose your ego and sense of self. What matters always is substance, not materialism.
It took me a long time to develop that axiom. There's so many aspects to it. The semicolon is intentional. In my life's story, I have survived so many things, but someone close to me did not. It's a reminder to remember him. He was the one who protected me as a child when my parents did not. He showed me the way of life, how to truly be a man in a non-toxic way. We spent time together in arcades as a child. It's just a little homage because I miss him everyday.
Their last few albums go hard on critiques of fascism, encouraging revolution, and environmentalism. Paradise is a hell of an album from 2019. Their last two efforts weren't quite as good, but still worthy of a listen.
They've never really shied away from being overtly political, even in their early days. "Black man, white man, yellow man, rip the system". It's always been there with them. Genuine too, they're good people.
Buy a decent memory card. There's free shops you can go ham and download everything you can to. You didn't need a giant card, I think 256 or 512gb would be somewhat affordable for most these days, and just download all you can. All the classic Nintendo games are great. There's a lot of hidden gems too for sure.
Be sure to grab the Virtual Boy emulator that came out recently. It works flawlessly and it's a sight to behold
The very notion you have given it thought shows you have empathy and a good heart. And a good brain to put together such intelligent and articulate words.
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KMFDM and Ministry. Hard AF, leftist themes.