I've been trying to get my life back on track and thought part of that might be reconnecting with people. So i just sent a few text but holy shit my social anxiety brutal, like I have no idea how I'm going to calm down for the rest of the day. Like I know the worst that can happen is i just get ignored but I guess part of me is worried someone is going to text back "fuck you I'm glad you're out of my life." Ugh this sucks.
one thing you can do in life is whenever you dont know what a person thinks about you you can think to yourself, "this person likes me and thinks well of me" and just try and live your life in that mode
if it sounds strange then realize that is already what you are doing except you are imagining them thinking ill of you
why do that to yourself?
you can start now. actively tell yourself, "you know, i bet our lives got busy and we all lost touch and i bet they are happy to hear from me. they are still busy with live of course but when they see my message they'll remember me fondly and want to touch base with an old friend"