I'm still feeling a bit stung/sour/yuck about yesterday's car shock, and even going over all the things I do and don't have control over haven't completely dislodged those feelings (some deep seated insecurity reviving itself out of nowhere telling me "nobody wants you and you'll never get another decent job once people find out what you're like and you'll be destined to be materially insecure for the rest of your life and you need me to tell you this so that you behave" - BEGONE!!!!)

You know what has started lifting my mood though? Writing little bits of lovely heartfelt things to people in emails/messages that I don't need to include but do, because they resonate with who I am as a person. Got a recent delivery for some locally made candles, they dropped it off the next day FOC and included some generous freebies and a lovely card. So I wrote them back an email about how much it's lifted my spirits and made my week and hoping their kindness is returned to them manifold.

And now I feel much much better. Forget rage-hunting on carsales for now, I think I will set myself a few tasks of Being Excellent To Others this weekend.