I’m literally the only family member who isn’t in the hospital right now because I have an early morning meeting that me missing at this point could cost me my job. Because of all the other things I have fucked up at my job this year. But I do hear what you are saying, I just do feel a lot of guilt on a lot of different fronts about this. I know I’m not responsible for the addiction but I am responsible for myself and I found out when I already had been drinking (so I don’t have a way over there even if I wanted to) and I have to prioritize something this fucking dumb like a meeting with a literal zoo so I can hopefully keep my job and not get evicted