I was really touched by your response, comrade. I'm even shocked someone on the internet can be so warm with a stranger, this community is great, and you are great, comrade. Thank you <3.

I will look into everything you guys are recommending. Cognitive behavioural therapy might help me, it was precisely because my girlfriend that I was able to explore my emotions and regain much of the self-esteem that I lost during those years.

Again, I can't stress it enough: thank you.