I am traumogenic (trauma created/clinical DID) plural system. It is highly likely that I never had a "core personality" that I was born as and instead have always had either an infant mental state or multiple personalities. (During the time most babies begin to form a coherent personality, I formed several. It is possible that not every system forms like this but highly like I did)

Every time I've felt I was singular, I've experienced mental walls, amnesia and other DID symptoms. If someone could do a "I'm singular ama" that'd be cool because I have questions too. :)

  • thethirdgracchi [he/him, they/them]
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    4 years ago

    Yeah the system analogy seems really helpful! Almost like you're running an automonous collective where no one alter can possibly control everything or be relied upon for everything. I imagine that there are seriously helpful lessons all of us can apply from those with DID when dealing with organizing communities!

    • Pleasure_Hacktivist [doe/deer,hy/hym]
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      4 years ago

      I strongly agree that singular organizers have a lot to learn from functioning DID systems. Though, there are some major gaps. Like, some systems have internal mirrors of abusers. The alter acting as this mirror is not the literal abuser, but the cognitive system creates this mirror in an attempt to predict what the real abuser is going to do and bully the system before the real abuser can. These alters can be reformed into protectors much much easier than an externally abusive person can be reformed. For DID systems, the task is to deeply internalize that what they have in their mind is not the literal abuser or a weird thought, but a very confused and wounded alter. Embracing an external abuser as one would embrace an internal introject would be very dangerous. Forgiveness practices are healthy and safe for systems but dangerous for all survivors when applied to external relations.

      • thethirdgracchi [he/him, they/them]
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        4 years ago

        That's so interesting that your system creates almost sock puppet abusers to practice protecting themselves. Thanks for sharing!

        • Pleasure_Hacktivist [doe/deer,hy/hym]
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          4 years ago

          It's an extremely common thing. In clinical literature, these are called persecutors and they are sentient. They can also be reformed. When reformed they tend to be some of the most protective members of the system. I actually don't have many conventional persecutors and they don't come out often. I mentioned this because I think it is the easiest area for an organizer to cause harm when trying to apply DID treatment strategies to organizing. Many survivors are pressured to let external family abusers back into their lives. With internal persecutors because they are inherently part of the psyche, you cannot and should not banish them. They also have a different capacity for harm than an external abuser. So, the whole "Awww...you're hurt, I'll forgive you" can sometimes work for an internal meeting but can potentially fatal when applied to external abusers. (Unfortunately, systems can also be abusers of external people and if a person is being abused by a system then the same protocols apply as being abused by a singular person)