people are saying such shitty things about me. ill probably delete this, but can some of my comrades just give me a pep talk if your up to in. I know logically I love this place and this is a bad day, but I cant stop crying, i do so much work going out, doing mutual aid, supporting union drives, working with the dsa and psl ect and it doesn't fucking matter because as soon as I vent about the class of people who are giving me a hard time IM somehow stopping racial solidarity from happening. it hurts so bad and makes everything feel so pointless. i feel so disposable. im not gonna debate anyone i just want to chat with nice comrades who care. im actually crying hard over internet shit maybe its my sign to leave.
edit: THANK YOU for the out pouring of love comrade, here, in my dms, and on cytube. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH. I will be staying. I will be taking a break after this sundays fanon post (its the last one and BEST chapter hope i can see you there) but I shall return even more powerful than before. you guys are amazing thank you again to everyone committed to making this a safe space for BIPOC people to express themselves.
What do these people oppose?
Feels like improving your friend's life should supercede whatever notions they have, regardless.
Its more just they nominally agree with things but refuse to actually change and question their beliefs or ideology after talking to them. it feels like im talking to a wall. they agree with something like 'healthcare for trans people' after a long talk explaining what that means. but then they seemingly completely forget that they ever said such a thing and never examined what that would require. its like they didnt care at all and were just humoring what i was saying.
also its very frustrating to talk to someone about something repeatedly, have them agree many times, then just refuse to change any of their beliefs to accommodate what you both agreed on. then they turn around as using you as an example of being 'one of the good ones' that agrees with them or make transphobic jokes (one of these liberals prided themselves on their anti-racism but then immediately went around to making me-having-a-dick jokes after i revealed i was trans to them). they arent my friends anymore.