And what if the essentially qualia of suffering is just what a loss function feels like, and each time we spin up a deep convolution generative adversarial neural network to make pictures of cats that don't exist yet, we're bringing into existence a spark of consciousness and then rapid-fire torturing it with an unspeakable agony far excruciating than anything our meatsack bodies could even conceive of.
edit: oh god, this actually blew up, I had intended it to be nothing more than a shitpost
Its more the existence of the "you" itself that's so incredible, which is really tough to make sense of without getting into homunculus logic. .
I lean towards panpsychicism because every other option is too crazy, and its just crazy enough.