Ambii [she/her]

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Cake day: July 23rd, 2024

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  • Got really drunk on saturday and finally came out to my irl friend group chat. Waking up not remembering doing that was "fun". This is also the second time I've gotten way too drunk and came out (first time was almost ten years ago when I came out to them at a party as bisexual)

    Would not recommend it.

    internalized transphobia relating to age

    In my coming out message I put in my chosen name and for the first two days afterwards, I thought that maybe I wasn't ready to do that.

    On analyzing that feeling I'm realizing that it might just be attatched to my internalized shame about coming out at my age and feeling that this whole thing, this whole experience, is a kid/teen/young adult thing. Like thinking about it makes me feel like I'm going to be physically ill. I actually gag when I think about it, out of shame or embarrassment.

    I think I need to talk to more older trans people.



  • Did my eyebrows the other day and found a foundation that matches my skin tone as well as some decent drug store eyeliners.

    Then yesterday my girlfriend straightened my bangs and showed me how to do a wing decently and cleaned up my brows further. On saturday I had another session of laser as well. The girl in the mirror is starting to appear daily now and I'm so excited, I've been wanting to perform girl even more lately as I've just been vibing on HRT for the last year. My voice is starting to come out a bit when I'm actually trying and I'm becoming a bit more confident in it aahhhh things are starting to come up. I just need to figure out a way to leave my current shitty job and still be able to afford rent cuz I am struggling AND I can't be openly trans. Shit sux but I don't have any qualifications whatsoever so what can I really do emilie-shrug










  • Think this prog is really starting to kick in.

    horned thoughts

    Having more than average horny thoughts recently and oh also i have a feral need to have someone put their mouth on my bitties and galls.

    (The concept of) Men are starting to seem more hot and I'm suddenly experiencing the bi-cycle in reverse of what I'd feel pre-hrt where I question if I'm actually still attracted to women. Why do most cishet men have to be so gross though AHHHHHH.


    Besides that, the other things I've noticed could also be attributed to regular ol estradiol. My hips are looking way wider, my ass continues to get rounder, I have the thighs of a fertility goddess, my boobs are rounding out, and my waist looks like I actually have a waist.


  • Ambii [she/her]togamesMarvel rivals
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    1 month ago

    Despise marvel and disney but I'm really loving this game. Overwatch has been my slop game for the last 5 years or so after I dropped it the first time in 2017ish. This game feels like more of the same but with a fresh coat of paint and interesting ideas.

    I'm really really loving playing Luna Snow (it helps that she's a cute girl character okay, sue me), and it's funny that I know about as much about her lore as the average marvel fan

    Overwatch's latest season just hit today and the main twitch streamer I watch probably isn't going to play it and I know a lot of other OW content creators won't as well. Personally I'm not going to either as the latest balance changes to a few tanks and dive dps on top of a nerf to THE counter-dive support look like they'll make playing support even more stressful and exhausting than it already was last season.

    Meanwhile in rivals I can just vibe out while playing luna snow and feeling like I can have some real impact when I have to play more offensive.

    Overall, 8/10 needs more girlypop characters and less marvel