haven't really looked at the ikea fanclub instance since i deleted my account a few months ago and it's always nice to get a reminder of why i try to avoid posting there or even just look at it in general.
Replaced my stolen from work failing Razer with a T14s gen2 AMD two months ago and it's been great so far. I haven't tried gaming on it yet since I mainly use this for homework and hobby coding but for $300 it's decently powerful and the battery lasts me 2-3 days with light use.
Got really lucky to find a model with the 5850U for the same price as the weaker model because the seller locked themselves out of bitlocker or something.
Unfortunately some of the newer models don't have easily upgradable ram so if that's something you need definitely look into it before buying.
I like to imagine the pokemon world is a fuedal society where the champions are monarchs of their region, the elite four are lords, and the gym leaders are vassals.
A pokemon TTRPG sounds really neat, I'd love to see a version of this idea that incorporates the TCG in some manner. Maybe I'll make it my next godot project.
Does anyone else feel like they can't fully come out until they can 'prove' themselves? Like for example I can't help but feel like I'm 'not allowed' to ask for my desired pronouns/name from friends or my partner or people in general if I don't first at least get rid of facial hair and at the bare minimum sound like I'm voice training.
Some days I still wonder if I'm really trans or if I convinced myself of something something something.
Those same days I struggle to hold back tears as I stare at my own legs and compare them to my girlfriend's and think about how much hair removal I need to pass a vibe check in the mirror.
Such is life ig
In happier news I finished my last session of laser for this round and I'm really happy with the results. Gotta wait a few days or 2 weeks or so to let it grow out and see how it actually looks now so I can get a new referral. Gonna try and see if I can sneak the little hairs between my eyebrows as well as my sideburns in the referral.
Re-watched I saw the tv glow 2 weeks ago with my girlfriend and it fucking destroyed me the second time around. Really took me by surprise because I didn't even tear up the first watch.
Same week I started sobbing from the pain during my laser session, like I was a total mess. I absolutely could not stop it from happening and It's not something that ever happened to me pre transition.
Today I connected just a little too hard with a song and started crying on my drive home.
E has turned me into a crybaby and I fucking love it. I love crying. Why? No clue, maybe it's because it's a sign that my emotions are actually available to me now.
Ya girl also started stimulants last week and today I doubled my dosage from 5mg to 10mg and I feel so so so emotionally energized.
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blah blah blah I just don't like his comedy style or acting, that should be reason enough.