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9 hours agoThe language is vague, but the EO could be interpreted as mandating a federal bathroom ban for any federal buildings.
JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them]
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Well, pain/discomfort is a sign of atrophy, so if you want to maintain material for a future bottom surgery, you wouldn't want to eliminate erections entirely. I know that some people take low doses of erectile dysfunction medication (i.e. viagra) right before bed to simulate the effects of random nightly erections that the body normally uses to maintain function.
·1 day agoI think it's more of trying hijack an existing agency since a new one would require congressional approval.
Reposting since I posted it right before the last megathread closed
So, previously I put out feelers for a super-specific idea for a TTRPG campaign and didn't get particular traction. That's okay.
I want to put out more general feelers for a tracha tabletop roleplaying game thing. For opsec and accessibility purposes, I am still thinking scheduled synchronous text chat with matrix chat. For the game system, would rule out D&D 5e or other neo-trad game, but would otherwise be open. My current preferences for running games leans towards OSR/NSR games, but I still enjoy more narrative games as well (PbtA, FitD, etc...).
So, previously I put out feelers for a super-specific idea for a TTRPG campaign and didn't get particular traction. That's okay.
I want to put out more general feelers for a tracha tabletop roleplaying game thing. For opsec and accessibility purposes, I am still thinking scheduled synchronous text chat with matrix chat. For the game system, would rule out D&D 5e or other neo-trad game, but would otherwise be open. My current preferences for running games leans towards OSR/NSR games, but I still enjoy more narrative games as well (PbtA, FitD, etc...).
·2 days agoWeight leaks for semi-open models have been fairly common in the past. Meta's LLaMa1.0 model was originally closed source, but the weights were leaked and spread pretty rapidly (effectively laundered through finetunes and merges), leading to Meta embracing quasi-open source post-hoc. Similarly, most of the anime-style Stable Diffusion 1.5 models were based on NovelAI's custom finetune, and the weights were similarly laundered and became ubiquitous.
Those incidents were both in 2023. Aside from some of the biggest players (OpenAI, Google, Anthropic, and I guess Apple kinda), open weight releases (usually not open source) have been become the norm (even for frontier models like DeepSeek-V3, Qwen 2.5 and Llama 3.1), so piracy in that case is moot (although it's easy to assume that use non-compliant with licenses is also ubiquitous). Leakage of currently closed frontier models would be interesting from an academic and journalistic perspective, for being able to dig into the architecture and assess things like safety and regurgitation outside of the online service shell, but those frontier models would require so much compute that they'd be unusable by individual actors.
Went out shopping (for a bit) in full femme outfit today: black tank top + b/w flannel + leather jacket + full makeup. I was wearing a mask since I am still coughing/recovering, but I had full eye makeup (shiny eyeshadow, eyeliner, mascara and brow pencil). Also wearing a layered chain necklace and a matching studded choker, along with a studded belt and combat boots. Outerwear was a black leather coat. It was really fun, and I want to post it to RedNote but I don't know what tags to use
CW: Dysphoria, passing anxiety
Right before going out, I sent some pics to a male friend (platonic) that I am out to see if he thought whether my mask made me "look more femme" (i.e., help getting closer to passing). He said there was no difference. I don't think he was being mean, but that really hurt for some reason.
I've mostly just come out to my old gaming buddies, who are unfortunately cismen. I need to come out to my women friends in town to get better opinions and advice, and I desperately need to make friends with local trans people.
CW: Dysphoria
My dysphoria has been building up this week. I still have cold symptoms, and can't wear proper make-up due to wiping my nose/mask that smears it. Almost cried a few times this week, either looking at my outfit or at my body or my face. Wearing eye makeup helps, but I still feel too nervous to wear mascara to work. Once my nails grow a bit more I think I need to start painting them. They were at a decent length last weekend, but I chickened out and cut them instead.
Also still worried about the passport, but my therapist wrote a very nice support letter that I hope clears things up for the passport agency.
This is what bunk beds are for.
Once nice thing about RedNote is I have a place to post self pics that have an effectively 0% chance of being seen by my (anti-China) family.
CW: Transphobia, identification documents, health insurance, forced outing
More fuckery with my passport application. After sending it in for a correction after they failed to put the correct gender marker on it, they now sent me a letter (which took a week to arrive) that I need to send in my birth certificate. As far as I can tell from the state department website, there is no requirement to send in proof of citizenship with a DS-5504, so I am annoyed and nervous. I am including another letter with the relevant web pages about the data correction and gender marker change policies, but I am beginning to despair. I am now worried that the policy could change before the processing of the passport is complete.
Health insurance at work is also starting to be a nightmare. The HR system allows you not to disclose gender/sex, but that's fake because you have to pick a binary sex for the health insurance. The HR representative also used transphobic language in the email letting me know about this, so that's pretty bad as well. I put it down as female, and then updated my gender identity info as well to make it clear. Not adding pronouns yet since that pops up without digging into the profile, so at least I can avoid that involuntary outing, but it really sucks overall.
I am now worried that the insurance company is going to ask for proof of sex at some point, and until I get my passport I don't have any IDs that have the correct gender marker (updating state ID is out of the question).
At least it wasn't an eternal.
Well, the Lancet is a journal, so these would be studies by different authors using different methodologies.
Blahaj (bootleg) acquired.
Was looking for a PCP now that I am off the student health plan and working as a post-doc, and I got lucky. The one PCP that's accepting clients at the closest (good) in-network clinic notes an interest/specialty in LGBTQ+ primary care. I don't know if I need to switch my GAC from Planned Parenthood, but it does make me hopeful that they won't be in the dark or bigoted about trans health care.
EDIT: Well, that PCP isn't available until June, and in fact it doesn't seem like any PCP is available in the clinic system to establish care until April, when I will probably be moving out of town. So fuck me I guess. Looks like I will be relying on urgent care for health issues then, or at least I have to find someplace that's farther away.
EDIT2: Well, nowhere else within 25 miles or so seems to have a physician available as a PCP until June or July, so I just scheduled an appointment that I will likely not be around for in hopes that someone else cancels. Even if you have insurance I guess healthcare is a lottery in this fucking country.
Depending on the concept/genre, you can prototype a video game as a board game or tabletop roleplaying game.
One of my kitties gave me kisses (licks) for the first time. He's not much of a licker, so it was surprising. I wonder if he knows I am sick.
I assume that this is the UK? You may want to look into self-managed transition (i.e. DIY) care if you have the means/support network for it.