RiotDoll [she/her, she/her]

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  • it's not for lack of trying, but the far right doesn't deal with wreckers and state interference to the same degree the left does.

    the left is also less willing to abuse human psychology to get people under the banner.

    we can be like them, but we have to start getting left wing sympathetic people on board with things that traditionally the left finds abhorrent in this country.

    A lot of little and big rubicons to cross culturally before we can have organizing like that.

    specifically about the use of force and discipline around organizing. people need to accept enough hierarchy to be able to take orders, to be willing to do what it takes to keep your movement and your comrades safe.

    acceptance that we've been at war for decades now, but haven't been acting like it. It's time to treat this like war and i think a lot of leftists are still not there in the USA w/r/t accepting that.




  • Do you think so? I think what we are internally isn't fully dependent on memory and reference, there is some element of us that just is, for at least as long as we're alive. Behind your eyes and resting within your interior is a spark of something that has existed continuously since you were born, that little "I" of awareness may never change.

    It's always you imo. You can go through mk ultra style brainwashing, lose your sense of identity, find yourself under a new name and with new interests, but between who you were and who you are, are enough commonalities that I would dispute the notion we're just electrical signals in wet gooey meat endlessly referencing the past to navigate the present and anticipate the future - but that's me.






  • I'm absolutely not returning to twitter to reply guy @ elon, but like that's an absolutely amazing failed attempt at a gacha

    Brother you're trying to signal boost and set the tone of discourse. Adrian Ditmann might as well embody how you think normal people see you, and it's sad.

    Naked narcissism and manipulation, "actually libs i'm just loving myself" is amazing

    I want to somehow say the thing that he sees, and is cut down by it, and is forced to reckon with how awful he is. That's my power fantasy, is being able to do that to shitty people. Make them hurt with surgical precision like an AED trying to jumpstart a heart.

    But I know guys like this never really had the capability to get that jolt, and by the time they're whatever the fuck Elon is now, there's no chance.

    I feel kinda sappy for just wanting these people to have some kind of eureka/enlightenment moment, but I would have so much more hope for the world if that were possible.



  • It's weird to only be involved exoterically on this site i guess is one way to put it? I really don't wade into drama threads, i don't exist in the deeper social network here. I just browse the pages, and the closest thing to drama I indulge in is like, when someone from a lemmy instance with liberal brain rot wades in and demands group humiliation from us.

    I can tell it's impacting the user base, and the activity level, and I do want to ask the mods what's going on in the back end? Because the number of drama bombs going off behind the scenes that leaks out into the instance as a whole is probably beyond what's necessary - this shouldn't be happening like this y'all.

    Like, to me an ideal mod-admin cadre exists to facilitate discussion inside some parameters, like a set of rules and conventions for behavior. Hexbear is leftist, and has a sizeable contingent of serious leftists, so I understand that comes with some of the tensions these spaces have in real life, and is prone to wrecking and power tripping and all that stuff - I think leftists expect some of that.

    But it's happening an awful lot, and it's fucking things up - so structurally something should probably change, I just can't comment on specifics. I am just certain that unity of intention and purpose, and being even handed and consistent with enforcement does prevent a lot of what's happening. The fat-phobia stuff should not be happening, and it didn't need to go this far. I am transfemme and I have traumatic history with cis men and toxic masculinity - i struggle to be nice about men to be very delicate about it - but some of what flies here is just toxic to a healthy community in that regard. I say that with the hopeful understanding that as a transfemme woman I really do not want any cis men coddled over their identity and perceived oppression, but it still gets kinda wack here in that regard.

    If this site wants to go that direction, i even think that would be fine, but consistency and, again, not letting drama be aired like, on the main page, is important because it's the kind of drama that makes people nope out, and regardless of merit, that shit kills the site, and i don't think hexbear deserves that as a place or community.

    I'm gonna try to limit this post to all I say on this. I generally like the moderation and administration here - but something is clearly wrong, and some kind of overhaul in hierarchy, vetting, and autonomy needs to be reviewed.





  • my mom is pretty much fine. She hates politics and has enough sense to understand the news cycles exist to give people like her panic attacks, and she fucking hates donald trump and maga people and their hatreds with an intensity.

    But my dad is down a Q rabbit hole, a maga guy, and some of it's pretty sad. He's getting fed stuff by the algorithm that's designed to prey on his insecurities and his pathologies. He's been abusing stimulants for years now, and that has caused him to lose almost all of his teeth. So of course he believes in a theory of medicine that lets you regrow teeth with a mild electrical current???

    And like, we still talk - if i can keep him in a narrow range of his para politics interests we can shit on israel together, we can discuss a lot together. He gets into fights with people who agree with him more politically over me, because i'm trans? He's weird. He puts his family first and I believe that man would take a bullet for me, but he supports a ton of shit that's positioned against me, and is in total denial about that fact.

    He's mentally ill and the algorithmically delivered content is making him worse. It's really depressing, and it's making him burn a lot of bridges in a really sad way.



  • RiotDoll [she/her, she/her]toEl ChismeGrimesposting
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    7 days ago

    i've met girls who were on the wrong side of stuff like that, and you can legitimately break somebody's brain with certain techniques paired with drugs she's known to take.

    I think that might be what's happening. It's an interesting coincidence grimes found her way to christianity to "quit vaping" right around the time elon musk needs Christian Cred






  • I have some music theory. I know how to find what key i'm in and stuff - I have some material that's in G#m that I supplemented with a scale in C#m, for example. I can do a basic amount of that kind of manipulation with music theory. When I find new chords I tend to use online tools to reconstruct it to figure out where I'm at, and find likely places to go if i end up developing whatever i'm playing more.

    But I'm not gonna pretend I have a lot of depth there - I know enough to fill in a lot of gaps as needed.

    What is some composition software you recommend? I have Reaper and Audacity, that I use to record my electric and fiddle with it, but I'm pretty unhappy with Reaper, and Audacity is just too limited in scope obviously



  • I don't go around discoursing about video games, but if I was gonna make a Ciri game, I wouldn't make her a fuckin' witcher.

    She can hop dimensions and teleport, for fucks sake there's a much more interesting story to be had than what the trailer indicates they're doing.

    Really am not thrilled by this, but I'm still gonna play this slop and this is genuinely me being a weirdo about the lore and knowing what kind of potential her character has - "witcher" is the most boring thing they could've done.

    But dont lump me in with the g*mers i dont care that much and i still adore ciri lol



  • whether hrt is a miracle or not seems to vary - for me it made my brain work better, it made a lot of stuff click, and I still get gender euphoria on shot day, six years in.

    if it's not right for you, it won't hurt to try. If it is right for you, you'll find yourself laughing you ever had misgivings.

    Just make sure you're doing it for yourself. I know this is weird but social pressures to get on hrt exist, and they shouldn't be heeded without asterisk



  • I love her in less hinged ways and I don't buy it? But she's definitedly connected to trans (and enby) folks via syncretism with innana/ishtar if nothing else.

    I always feel like these concepts are within us in a tangible way. What aphrodite is in some sense is buried in us, encoded in the myths and stories we tell ourselves about these things. Where you find a younger, fiery feminine within; when you appreciate the beauty of another person, the beauty of yourself, the beauty of a piece of art, she's there. When you desire another, she's there. When a transfemme dons the regalia of the feminine to induct herself into womanhood, she's the one who helps adorn you.

    Disentangle that from the world and see your own picture of her. If she's trans, then she's trans lol