Sombyr

I had a teacher tell me to drop out then be forced to write an apology letter for it.

She wrote "I'm sorry you thought I told you to drop out."

So I'm gonna say "I'm sorry you thought" is high up there. Straight up gaslighting.

lol, never even been to a real city in my entire life. Literally the most populated place I've ever been to doesn't even crack a population of 50k people, and the most populated place I ever lived was a tenth of that. Been a small town girl my whole life.

Definitely heard the trees thing as a kid though, I'd just already been told that trees were being blown around by the wind, but nobody could tell me that cars were being blown around by the wind I felt when I saw them, so that's why I concluded it must be the cars that were responsible for the wind.

I noticed there was always a gust of wind after cars passed, so I concluded wind was caused by invisible cars driving by. Storms were caused by the invisible drivers driving too fast.

I used to go outside during storms and yell at them to slow down. I was convinced it was working.

Interesting. I suppose they're both objects with pointy bits much larger than the holes they're trying to pass through. On that note, I've been through very severe anal stenosis and THAT I would say was closing in on the most horrific pain I've ever been through. Before I could go to the doctor about it my wife basically had to spend all day and sometimes night keeping me occupied so I had something to do other than cry.

Huh. I'm guessing the pain of kidney stones comes in varying levels, because the one time I had them I wouldn't have called it the most painful thing in the world.

Then again, I could also have inherited my mom's pain tolerance, who gave birth multiple times without any kind of pain relief and without flinching.

That's basically how I was. Honestly, the reason I enjoy movies nowadays isn't really because it's my thing, but because my wife is always so excited to show me the movies she likes, and I can't help but enjoy myself when it's making her happy.

I rarely watch movies on my own, or with other people besides her, but when I do, it's usually because I think it'd be fun to tell her all about it, and maybe watch it with her too.

I'm also bigger on reading, but I have really severe, unmedicated ADHD, so I can't sit down with an actual book for longer than a few minutes. Gotta have pretty pictures, like a manga or graphic novel or something (and even then it's hard.)

Every time that comes up, I think to myself "Something I've gone through must be more painful, right? I've gone through some pretty hellish things, and you're trying to tell me something MORE painful exists? Not just a little more, but dramatically more? For my own sanity, I'm gonna have to live in denial of that."

I used to be like this, but with movies. When I first met my wife, she was utterly baffled at the concept of somebody not enjoying movies, and she made it her mission to make me enjoy them.

Come to think of it, she actually doesn't like music much. I've failed to change her opinion on that though because my taste in music is shit (and I'm proud of it.)

No, on account of I cannot drive at all. I'm 25 and live in Vermont. The particular part I live in, everything's accessible by bus, so I've just never felt the urgency to learn.

I used to experience it 24/7 a few years ago, before I was medicated for the countless mental disorders I have. Nowadays, I don't think I've experienced it in at least a couple years.

I've just decided at this point that I don't care if my life has any sort of meaning. I still do fun things and have passions, but I don't do those to give my life meaning, I do it to just feel good for now.

And days, sometimes weeks and months where I wake up and think "I don't want to do anything. I just want to sit and rot." I just do that. Makes those days easier to get through. Doesn't matter if my existence has no meaning for a while. Doesn't matter if it never does again. I'm just ok with whatever happens.

And one day when I die, I'll be ok with it. To me, no matter what I do it'll all eventually fade away with time. Eventually, nobody will remember me. But the particles and energy that made me up will always exist, and the things I did will help determine their final resting place at the heat death of the universe. All I have to do to make a permanent mark on the world is simply exist.

But I dunno. I've been off my meds for a bit for various reasons, so maybe I'm just going crazy.

Most conservatives, however deeply red, are not intentionally hateful and are usually open to rational discussion. People just don't know how to have rational discussions nowadays and the few times they do, they don't know how to think like somebody else and put things in a way they can understand.

People nowadays think because a point convinced them, it should convince everybody else and anybody who's not convinced by it is just being willfully ignorant. The truth is we all process things differently and some people need to hear totally different arguments to understand, often put in ways that wouldn't convince you if you heard it.

It's hard to understand other people and I feel like the majority of people have given up trying in favor of assuming everybody who disagrees with you knows their wrong and refuses to admit it.

Going through this right now. Don't enjoy playing single player games much. Only usually enjoy multi-player games if I'm playing with my wife. I'm just letting it happen tbh.

Getting into tabletop games and collecting instead. Unlike video games, tabletop games come with all sorts of cool knickknacks, especially war games, and I'm finding getting to collect them and then play with the cool new things holds my interest better nowadays. Feels like it scratches the same itch as installing a thousand new mods into video games then playing for a few hours before loading it up with even more mods, but instead of mods it's new little dudes and I get to assemble and paint them.

My wife and I, politically, tend to have very different viewpoints. She tends to lean conservative on a lot of things, whereas I tend to be either centrist or left leaning. It works, however, because we're willing to calmly and rationally listen to each other's viewpoints, and accept when the other tells us we think we're off base or just straight up wrong.

Another important part, though, is where she doesn't lean conservative. That being the area of human rights. She's very accepting of trans people for instance, of which I am one. And when she has an unknowingly transphobic view, she's always willing to listen and change her stance when it's pointed out. If we had fudemental disagreements about treatment of LGBT people and other minorities from the beginning, I never would have dated her. That's one line that I think shouldn't be crossed and shows if a person is genuinely hateful or just misguided.

I don't think she's ever gonna fully migrate left, and I'm certainly not heading right (fell down that rabbit hole once, not gonna do it again,) but knowing she'll listen and change if I point out a view of hers is unintentionally hateful has been a very important part of our relationship.

On the non-political side though, we tend to agree on pretty much everything. We have similar views on mental health. We have similar relationship goals. We have near identical hobbies. We even agree on the best condiment to eat nuggets with (barbecue sauce. And if you're using ketchup you're a monstrosity.)

Personally, I do think there's some key things that disagreeing on will, inevitably, destroy a relationship, but I think people overestimate how much you have to agree on to have a healthy relationship.