ThingInItself [comrade/them]

nonsense that someone came up with to beat back the crushing existential fear they felt as they grew older and just buried it in 1000 page long rants

Everyone you're dissing here would would just point to this and assert, "While you say this to antagonize my position, I think it's exactly correct."

What are you, a truly disciplined master over your own existential terror? Are you separate and above all us peons who can't get over the antagonism and alienation of existence?

Just admit that struggling to read shit makes you insecure... and understand that you cannot effectively critique something which you do not take seriously. I know this is prob a wrecker, but still

Have you listened to Comus?

I mean I think it's a crucial problem that most revolutionaries, especially if genuinely materialist, should always be returning to: how much of this is really a personal jihad I've embarked on to deal with the traumas of my particular historical and material experiences, how much of this is truly pointing towards universal emancipation and the necessity of a Communist future?

The point is not to trivialize the mundane pathology of struggling with our personal issues but to assert the dialectic between these anxieties and the antagonisms of social existence which facilitate them - the radical step is grappling with the fact that any individual subject can only be derived from some presupposed grounds of collective existence, that your anxieties reflect very real yet contradictory truths about the very constitution of the social world in which you exist.

You're probably right to doubt the purity of your moral principles right now, but you're missing that the problem is likely precisely the fact that you evidently think that your belief in Communism ought to be pure.