large_goblin [he/him, comrade/them]

Bazzite on main PC because it just works and I don't want to mess around with nvidia drivers.

Almalinux for home server and anything I need to spin up short term.

So glad you were able to find what works for you. That feeling of experiencing what normal is supposed to be for the first time is indescribable.

This was really fun. Always great to talk to fellow hbears!

This is a difficult time of day for me but please add me to the ping list for future sessions.

Learning languages.

It just never comes together for me.

By this point in the story I thought Dutch was all dried out with no sauce, but the oil baron and Angelo Bronte made me think he just might pull it back.

Sick of looking up how to make desktop Linux behave in a certain way and having to read endless smug comments from Linux nerds asking WHY anyone would want to do such a thing, as if the typical behavior for that specific distro was the standard across Linux in general, nevermind the 98~% of computers running windows/Mac os

It's one of the most ADHD things I've ever read. If a diagnosis is possible I recommend it.

What mine (m1 pro, 16gb ram, has fans) is good at:

• Very low power usage and exceptionally long battery life
• Screen is above and beyond what a laptop needs
• generally fast and can manage cpu-heavy games and video transcoding

What it’s bad at

• ever being able to upgrade
• some functionality requires third-party apps or terminal knowledge
• not all programs have an Apple silicon version and need the translation layer
• virtualization is inconsistent and unpredictable

They’re cool devices. I’ve been a longtime laptop hater but I’m happy with mine. Yes you do need the 16gb ram upgrade that they will rip you off for. Get a pro model if you think you’ll need active cooling, but my fans rarely turn on.

I went unmedicated for 30 years. A few things I found that worked:

• Exercise Having a consistent exercise schedule helps so much with energy and mood management. Keeping myself on a constant energy baseline during the day without constant up/down spikes really alleviated ADHD symptoms in the workplace. I did mostly resistance training with occasional cardio.

• Strict scheduling / using a planner This worked in the last few years but it required a level of emotional maturity and self-belief to utilise properly. You need to believe it is necessary to follow this schedule to the best of your ability but also not put yourself down for getting behind and missing tasks. For a long time I would inevitably fall behind at some point and start hating myself and get stuck in a zero productivity hole.

• Working conditions This is by FAR the hardest to control but it made the most difference. I never fit into a 9-5 unmedicated but I did well at a job where I could do all my work after midnight as long as it was completed in time. I would do what I wanted to during the day and then start getting all my work done from the evening. If you are the opposite and prefer mornings then the other way round might be better but the same overall idea still applies.

I can only do Morrison's and I know they're not everywhere, unless you know a place I can purchase from that doesn't require a UK phone number.

I will DM you about it.

To be clear - I’d be willing to contribute to this. Cash is a no go but I’ve made purchases from Amazon and other US retailers online before so it should be OK.

I have to jump through so many hoops to send cash to US comrades so I can't help with day to day stuff.

However - and you can tell me if I'm out of line here - have you considered creating an amazon wishlist on a burner account and sharing it here? That way you definitely get the specific goods you need without worrying about money management. Stuff like the sleeping bag and clothes you mentioned.

I really want to help but I cannot use any of the apps internationally. It would have to be a bank transfer with wise or equivalent so you'd have to provide a lot of personal details. If this works for you, you can DM me.

I would buy it for pets if they required meat but I would never consume it myself.

The ingame currency only tractor beams also got nerfed, this is now a required item for moving cargo above a certain size.

Seems like they realised cargo players buy a starter ship and nothing else and that’s simply not an acceptable contribution.

They should be more like the boomers who buy every new fomo pvp fighter but seemingly only sit in stations and complain about pronouns and millenials instead of every actually flying their $800 collection.

I just remembered Shadows of Doubt, I think that's the most recent game with this system that I've played. It has proc gen cities where every citizen has a job and a sometimes spontaneous daily routine. Every few days a citizen will murder another one and leave behind a trail of evidence. It's supposed to hit 1.0 this month as well.

Very raw and buggy in places but in ways that leads to more hilarious outcomes. You hide in a freezing vent waiting for someone to head out to the club for them to apparently decide nah not tonight 2 seconds after leaving the building and catch you in the middle of reading their emails.

I think about Oblivion and it's NPC scheduling far too often. It feels like the missing piece in otherwise amazing games like Deus Ex MD or Pathologic 2.

I remember MGS V had elements of this. Guards would patrol, be relieved at certain times, there was scheduled transports of prisoners and resources. If you knocked out an entire base of guards at night eventually the morning shift would turn up and start waking them up, putting the base on alert.

Geopolitics is just a map painting game to these people. When your borders are bigger thats good. Why would you not want your borders to be bigger? Graduated from Total War university with a PhD in Medieval 2 crusade strategies.

I cannot agree with the idea of them being the "same thing". Potentially related? High cormorbidity? Sure.

I have AuDHD and the two have been in conflict my entire life. Since I began medication for ADHD I've finally begun to understand how my autism actually presents and that I can comfortable live with it.

Before this I constantly encountered executive dysfunction because the two have been completely opposed.

A special interest? A desire to understand something on an extremely detailed level? An important work project that I'm both motivated to complete and will help advance my career?

Nope here's an overwhelming urge to do literally anything else, we got the happy brain feeling from starting that, it's been 5 minutes and it's time to chase a new one.

Even sensory overload or uncomfortable feelings. Hey you want to be reminded of the time you touched something gross when youre trying to fall asleep? Or the time you ate something and it made you feel sick. Or the most anxiety inducing sound on loop in your brain. Since I started medication these intrusive thoughts have stopped almost entirely. ADHD was turning the most uncomfortable aspects of my autism against me for absolutley no personal gain.