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lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 2 days ago

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lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 5 days ago

Just tried and i taste only glass, im gonna close this.

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lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 7 days ago

Omgggggg pls post pics when its done, it sounds so cuuuuutttteeee!! ^^

How is the knitting going? Wrists sore yet?

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 7 days ago

Yayyy more trans knitters! Qhat are you knitting? My first big project was a trans flag scarf ^^

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · edit-2 7 days ago

Maybe, im fairly certain ive got adhd so it would fit ig? Idk what RSD feels like tho so

Edit: Im just chocking it up to my mood disorder ig.

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 9 days ago

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lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 9 days ago

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lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 9 days ago

Damn now I want a Sphynx sister project to make laser more easily accessible

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · edit-2 9 days ago

Thanks, its very frustrating (𖦹﹏𖦹;) like I am cognitively aware that its bs, but emotionally distraught because while my cognitive reality is accurate, in my emotional reality my friends are all on their way to either hurt me or leave.

Also I love kamoji its nice to see someone using it on bearsite (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ૮₍´˶• . • ⑅ ₎ა

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 9 days ago

spoiler

I socialized with close friends yesterday, so today I get to freak out and try to stop my brain from thinking they all hate me and want me gone. I hate my brain, why does it try to hurt me so much when people express that they enjoy my company? Why does it not want me to be happy? I should be happy and joyful and instead i feel alone and like all the people I know are out for blood, my blood.

To be clear, they have done literally nothing to indicate this, its all in my head. Well, my heart. Is there a word for delusions of the heart? Cause thats what ive got. I dont get paranoid delusions about cognitive things, i just get super fucking deluded and paranoid about emotional things. I hate this.

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 10 days ago

Queer open house xmas night was wonderfulllll! it was such a nice turnaround from yesterday im so happppyyyyyy (and stoned )

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 10 days ago

Im with friends today, which is nice, but i still miss my old family

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 11 days ago

idk what to put here

Just a kinda sad evening. Sitting on my own when i used to be with family every year at this time. Now theyre gone and idk, its just weird and difficult.

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 13 days ago

My gui programming has been going great today! I figured out of how to do what im wanting, and have a trivial example!

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 14 days ago

cute formatting for someone that hates guis so much

I can do simple things! And guis are worthwhile in specific instances, but theyre so hard to program ;.;

but i can relate, api work is so much easier. good luck in your endeavors o7

Ty the api is fun at least ^^

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 14 days ago

Unironically yes. Give me a text editor any day. Hell i even read my mail in emacs. Navigation without the mouse is much bdtter.

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 14 days ago

I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming I hate programming

Anyway ive been programming a lot. I got the latest api version implemented, and im trying to make a gui client and i hate it. Im not supposed to write gui code ive decided. I can make the api bindings, i can make a framework to use, but i cant make a gui to save my life. I just want to make a trivial client to show off my api code, but n^oo_oo, cause every time i try to write gui code i end up so turned around. I can deal with thread safety headaches so easy but the gui THE GUI IS HURTING ME PLEASE GUI STOP HURTING ME!!!

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 16 days ago

Wonderful! I havent sorted pipewire, but i can install it ^^ im using a 2019 thinkpad with void linux on it. I remember trying to get my midi controller working but it just would not (tho i also dont have a realtime kernel installed so even if i got it working i have no guarantee that it would be playable

lilypad [she/her, null/void] · 17 days ago

Would this be the right comm to ask about setting up for simple recording at home? I can do the physical stuff but the software stuff is really confusing, as are ADCs and getting input to the computer. Somehow Jack is involved, but last time i tried to set it up i broke pulse somehow. I want to try again come the new year tho