Yeah, ive got more than anxiety going on in my brain 
Got a bipolar 1 diagnosis a few days ago. Been on the meds for a month. Theyve been great, but the diagnosis has me somber ig 
been recontextualizing my past experiences, which is difficult.
Then youll find out if it works 
Aripiprazol is a very lowkey mood stabilizer if you want to talk to your doc about it
They may work for you, they may not 
they help with my social difficulties and somewhat with my rsd.
Had a lovely celebration of family, but good lord my uncleinlaw was a fucker. First time meeting him, and he came with some ableist transphobic BS and didnt hear shit from other perspectives. Fucker goin on about 
in america and making r*-slur jokes, goddamn i almost forget what people are like, all my friends are some form of leftist, and like 85% are trans. Anyway just wanted to vent.
Idk for anxiety, mood stabilizers have been what worked for me (after several failed antidepressants that made me crazy 
)
seriousness I kind of wish my self was firmer than this
I know that feeling so well omg, its so frustrating to have an unstable sense of self. Idk what will work for you, but for me it was socializing (and meds to make socializing easier lol)
talkin' to people is both something I need else my sense of self will melt, (no I don't know why) and a difficult tiring spoon-loss activity.
Idk if this is your experience, but i find identity is a social thing, or at least has a large social component. If im not socializing regularly, "i" ceases to be. Identity exists in between people ig
Gonna share what my friend said to me when i fell off and started smoking again a month ago: it takes an average of 7-9 attempts to quit before you succeed permanently. Recovery is nonlinear and everyones path and process is different.
Treat yourself with love and care and understanding, localoaf 
Hmmmm maybe the brown (bottom row third from the right) with the white would make a yellow colour from far enough away?
Ooh ok thats a constraint! Can i ask what youre color pallet is?
I like the right one more, but i think it would look good with a more contrasty accent colour, perhaps a shade of blue or green? Maybe pastel-y since the colours are so strong in the portrait.
Yeah, i havent been this social in a long long time. Happy your social battery isnt getting drained so heavily anymore 
This makes my incredibly melty ice cold heart melt in joy 
im so glad she gets this version of you
Omg i know right!? Its wonderful, but now I need to change how i manage my social life 
Transition has me socializing & mood stabilizers has me not getting socially exhausted, truly a new me
Thats the thing, i dont need to step back 
normally i just burn out and thats how i manage my social battery (great strat, i know 
). Its more me getting in my head and panicking about myself than an actual need to step back, if that makes sense?
Gettin accelerated 
Here my observation is that there is some way to mathematically represent the idea of royalty, as well as some idea of gender, although most likely in this situation a reactionary version of gender is represented. But here gender is probably stored across multiple dimensions, and the gender binary could be a projection of some underlying phenomenon.
I have thought about gender as an N-dimensional space, where N≥0. For every persons experience of gender, i think of it as the area where for ∀n∈N, 0, with completely agender being that for ∀n∈N, n=0.
The mental representation is lacking and probably doesnt account for everyones experience (or rather pushes the work of understanding it outside of the representation), but its helpful for me a little bit to think of everyones experience as an area or point, with some components i know and others I dont.
I might join if theres a more chill tracha, id at least check it out and see if it works for my brain
Meds have been helping... But still have all the (lack of) executive capacity, and seriously feeling the avoidant side of myself, getting very anxious about bringing people further into my life. Ive been so social lately, i feel like i may be overdoing it, and im trying to deal with that without overcorrecting and cutting all my friends and new aquaintances out of my life for the next 3 months
Ty, things are overall good cause of them