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  • Jenniferr [she/her, comrade/them]
    hexbear
    9
    10 months ago

    So it was 7 months to the day today that my egg cracked. During my 10 day long freakout I made a post to Transenby_liberation where I outlined all my confusing feelings and fears. In the past 7 months, most of those fears have come to pass. My ex fiance has officially left me today. She has a boyfriend now. Another big fear of mine that came to realization was that I wasted her 20s. I didn't feel that I wasted my 20s with her, but she feels that way. And today she saw me in makeup and a skirt, and she told me she doesn't feel bad anymore that she is dating someone else.

    Honestly it hurts. I feel incredibly alone right now. But I'm trusting that I'm making the right decision to pursue transition. I'm incredibly scared though and I feel like I'm making a mistake.

    • TerminalEncounter [she/her]
      hexbear
      4
      10 months ago

      meow-hug

      It's weird that your ex fiancee left you today but she also has a boyfriend now? That's kinda shitty of her, wtf? I mean if your sexuality and gender identity didn't align that's one thing but obviously sneaking around on you before having the courage to break up was shitty of her to do.

      Also saying she wasted her 20s with you is very very dumb. That sounds like it's coming from a place of pain she's gonna have to deal with. Maybe she's jealous you look better in a skirt and makeup than she did 😤

      • Jenniferr [she/her, comrade/them]
        hexbear
        5
        edit-2
        10 months ago

        Well she left me officially 3 or 4 days ago but she said she was gonna open her dms about a month ago, but wouldnt do anything rrrally until were seperated. But still, it's very quick and i had no idea she was that serious with a guy while we were living together. It's a lot of whiplash though. I think I stupidly thought that maybe she would realize I'm still the same person inside and idk... try and see if we could make it work. But maybe this is for the best. It's making me realize that I have no other option than to just try and move forward without her