It's been a slow trickle ever since COVID started. Just progressively losing any hope of having a good life long term. Hormones got banned in my state and I feel really dysphoric. The people in my life don't care about me. I could die right now and I don't think anybody would even realize for a few weeks. Idk man, what's even the point anymore?
Your death is their ultimate goal. Every day you stay alive is a small victory, even if it doesn't feel like it.
yea man, i just wake up everyday and move throu life just to spite people that just want me to give up and die, i dont have any other motive..living in itself is silly, but sometimes u have to cancel that reasonable part of ur brain and chug through life like any moving piece of meat created on this earth