LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]

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Cake day: August 18th, 2023

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  • CW: Holiday bullshit

    I regret coming back home for the holidays. My mom is super happy I'm back for the first time since coming out, so she went REALLY hard on Christmas this year and I feel bad about it. Like holy shit she just paid my rent yesterday, which really was the best Christmas gift. Especially considering I was out of work for a week because of my hand. But I also have to wear pants in font of my step-dad, there are so many people there that will just completely ignore me now because I'm trans, it's so awkward now. And they wouldn't shut the fuck up about alcohol all night, it was really hard. And I have 3 more family events this week, on top of just working with a broken hand on every other day. God I don't want to do this













  • LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]toneurodiverse[Edit]
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    4 days ago

    I feel this a lot. I mean you're already doing it, but writing things out has really helped me. Externalizing it without just dumping it on other people. Something else that's really helped me is recovery type meetings, AA CODA, whatever you feel most aligned with. Can't speak for other groups, but my AA group is cool with any sort of Honestly, has helped me more emotionally than with addiction directly. Able to just pop off and rant for a bit and nobody minds because they're there to do the same thing. Having people there to validate your feelings really helps. People that you may not ever see outside that meeting! It's more limited so it doesn't have the same social issues that being dependent on someone emotionally.


  • I get that, loneliness makes the addiction cycle really hard to break :/ Hey, you're coming back and that's what matters yk? Lots of people relapse, not all of them stop drinking again though. I know it's not the same but I'll make sure I try and message you more often

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