Does anybody else do this?

I've finally realized that the weird imbalance I feel in every relationship I actually care about is that I am far more deeply interested in other people than they are me. I've come to the realization that I make other people a special interest for myself, and that it hurts me when they don't reciprocate this thing that they admittedly never asked for but do happily soak up.

What do?

I'm finally going to have to scrape up the money for therapy and the courage to actually talk to someone other than an anonymous internet rando about this, aren't I? You guys can't actually tell me the magic words to fix me, right?

I am not loving it

  • ratboy [they/them]
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    9 months ago

    This is definitely something I experience. Ive read that it can be really difficult for ND people to define relationships, it's kinda all or nothing, which is super relatable to me. The distinct categorizations of best friend, good friends, acquaintances, etc. and all of those categories just doesn't really register for me. If I like you I usually really like you. I'm better at making distinctions now but I used to want EVERYONE to be my friend and got really hurt and confused when my bids for friendship weren't reciprocated how I expected