I don't want to inflict myself on anyone else.

I've been told that I'm funny/smart/cute/would make a good partner, including the unintentionally backhanded compliment that is "how are you still single!?", but I also have a heap of mental issues including depression and grief that I feel has hollowed me out as a person. I really struggle with even basic self care & keeping my living space one step above a landfill.

I don't want to make me someone elses problem, and I have a hard time not thinking I'd just drag anyone I meet down.

I have other reasons for still being single in my late 20s with very limited romantic experiences, but not wanting to be the anchor tied around someone's neck is a big part of it. Of course there's also not wanting to be pestering women for dates, dating apps being designed to take your self esteem out behind the shed and shooting it, not having/liking social hobbies, extremely limited social battery, etc etc, but my own mental illnesses/struggles are a big reason I haven't been on a date or had a romantic encounter for 6 or 7 years now.

Maybe my 30s will be brighter than my 20s. I'm trying to be optimistic, but