I turn 22 this year. I want a job. I have never applied for a job. I know that it does not matter if I embarrass myself in front of an interviewer or if I quit in the first week or get fired. I am still afraid. I wish I could get paid to roll around in mud and have tomatoes thrown at me. This would probably feel less shameful.
I mean you can be a dishwasher, it's a physically hard job but is literally rolling in mud and having tomatoes thrown at you. The job is so shit that nobody cares if you walk out in the first week, they're probably planning around it. Nobody expects you to be good at talking to people
People are still pretty shit to dishwashers, you could end up applying to a dishwashing gig and it's run by a company that contracts out to all the venues and catering in your area, you'll never get to build up a rapport with anyone, rotates constantly.
I had a catering job where they were like "yeah we're gonna put you on dishwasher" they were like menacing me like they were putting me in the hole because I was too good at bartending (omitting actual reason) and I was like yeah 🥷😶🌫️🌫️ nah