I turn 22 this year. I want a job. I have never applied for a job. I know that it does not matter if I embarrass myself in front of an interviewer or if I quit in the first week or get fired. I am still afraid. I wish I could get paid to roll around in mud and have tomatoes thrown at me. This would probably feel less shameful.
Don't feel bad about not wanting to apply, job applications and interviews are easily the worst part of working and it's perfectly reasonable to hate doing it. I'm terrible at both and I hate every second of it.
Yer gonna make it
Btw
I wish I could get paid to roll around in mud and have tomatoes thrown at me.
OnlyFans maybe?
one unpleasant consequence of our neoliberal hellscape is how everyone is forced to be their own marketer for their labor power. it may help to think of interviews and applications as games or skills that you need to learn and practice like anything else, because they are. but it's an awful and degrading process and there aren't many good ways around that besides nepotism. seems like you're entering into it with the right mindset, though. good luck!
Try not to take it too seriously, it's easy to let work cause autistic burnout.
My first real job involved lots of mud and smashed tomatoes and a little bit of shame and I was older than you when I got it.
Of course you're going to be nervous, that is a natural emotion for your brain to have in accompaniment with new and uncertainn experiences. We believe in you! Make us proud!
I'm in my mid-twenties and I feel you bro. I keep applying and applying but I am so fucking unemployable I don't even get interviews. I can apply all I want, but I'm fucking invisible. I qualify for nothing and any job I do apply to I never hear back from again. I am unwanted trash.
I am an ineet: Involuntary NEET
I feel you, and for my field at least (computer engineering), having to know a ton of frameworks which do similar things (yay capitalism) before even getting employed, and which I didn't learn at school where I had a structure that was conductive to learning is just as hellish
I mean you can be a dishwasher, it's a physically hard job but is literally rolling in mud and having tomatoes thrown at you. The job is so shit that nobody cares if you walk out in the first week, they're probably planning around it. Nobody expects you to be good at talking to people
People are still pretty shit to dishwashers, you could end up applying to a dishwashing gig and it's run by a company that contracts out to all the venues and catering in your area, you'll never get to build up a rapport with anyone, rotates constantly.
I had a catering job where they were like "yeah we're gonna put you on dishwasher" they were like menacing me like they were putting me in the hole because I was too good at bartending (omitting actual reason) and I was like yeah 🥷😶🌫️🌫️ nah
