So, I have a problem that I won't be able to solve until the end of 2025. If everything goes well, it will be like nothing ever happened. If everything goes wrong, I might have to pay money I cant really pay right now. (No idea how much exactly but more than I can afford probably) This is obviously a stress factor at times. I "could" try to solve it right now, but I can't really afford to solve this if it doesn't work out and have to rely on my parents' money, which sucks and is bad. In a way, it's probably not the end of the world; I heavily doubt I will go to prison, at least, but it sucks to have something that feels like a set-in-stone bad end. Feels like knowing the day of your death. Also, my dad has cancer, and that also is a bit of a stress factor, to be honest.

I'm schizophrenic, and usually just browsing the internet/games/anime is enough to keep my stress and thoughts at bay. Today, though, I couldn't think about anything else while doing other things, and it is really messing with me.

Do you have any tips for dealing with (I think you call them intrusive thoughts)? Other than drugs. I only do alcohol and I dont want to become an alcoholic.

Actually typing all of this out was nice if nothing else.

  • Comp4 [comrade/them]
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    9 months ago

    I hope its just some minor financial stuff at worst and doesnt result in some legal problems desolate. I always considered this a thing a "future" me had to deal with but its kind of getting to me.

    I could take care of this March/April if I really wanted/had to. I just hoped I could leave it till the end of 2025 which is basically the deadline for it.

    It feels almost like my body/mind needs something to worry about and this just happens to be the new thing.

    • plinky [he/him]
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      9 months ago

      For me stress of indecision is kinda worse, which is why I suggested either to simplify it by talking with parents beforehand (conditional), or by making peace with it.

      Also if it’s legal trouble, maybe there are some kind of free consultation thingies/looking at the law yourself? If you have idea about the deadline and money, you probably can at least find relevant law itself and cases