I thought she just didn't want to do sex stuff or cuddle or show affection..
Anyway I just thought it was important to let the world know that you can be volcel army and still be in a committed ten year relationship. In fact isn't that what true comradeship is built on?
Weapons grade cope aside, I think I'm one of those weird types of humans who needs affection and so on. Am I really going to have to start dating again? FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
I really wish I had something more insightful or comforting to say in response to this, but I feel you. My current situation is different but I think I've been through a couple of very similar heartbreaks to what you're describing.