I just need to vent a little bit and get some feedback from people outside of my friends and family. They love me unconditionally and I know they are never unwilling to listen, but I feel like a broken record lately and really can't find the motivation or make it better. I've really been feeling like an insufferable burden because of my pessimism and cynicism around this topic, so I figure why not unload it on some internet strangers and see what insight I can get from some like-minded people.
I work in big corpo and really really hate it on multiple levels. Everyone around me seems to either be blissfully ignorant or they have found a way to swallow their pride and just exist. I am having a lot of trouble doing that and it makes me feel like an unappreciative shithead. I'm in a good position, in a stable company with a lot of great perks and benefits, but I'm just not happy. I hate the industry, the culture, the work itself, but the people around me have been there for 10+ years, so there must be something I'm missing. Am I wrong for not being able to suck it up and cash my check?
Kind of.
I do my job and enjoy it relatively, but ultimately I don’t care. I just care when the deposit hits every two weeks. Other than that it’s no different that shitting or brushing my teeth. I’ll complain about it being pointless and boring and dumb etc. but even that seems pointless because I’m sitting on a computer and typing for 8 hours, not unloading trucks of food or cleaning bathrooms.
If you only care about work then it’ll annoy you to no end. Find something to do that’s physically and/or mentally stimulating. Dogs and cats may run immediately to you when you open a can of food, but if you leave them inside the house all day even if their needs are met, they’ll become depressed.