I know it’s a at best a useless mindset, as nothing will make me somehow magically get a new chance at those years. But it’s still a strong feeling and it’s still there.
I’m doing my best to push through it, I’m out there talking to people, but there’s usually a point where we are sharing personal anecdotes and I just feel my stomach tightening, as I barely have any of those. I have no experiences which means I have no identity which means I am uninteresting.
I've felt like this in different periods throughout my adult life and honestly I don't think I've ever really dealt with it. It kind of just fades away until the next time I get obsessively introspective about where I am in life.