I'm agender, meaning I don't really associate myself with gender at all. I'm amab, but never cared to be a boy when I was growing up. I had two older sisters who would rope me into playing "girls games" when I was young. I was never really happy with my appearance when I was a teenager, but I never thought I wasn't enough of a man. I wanted to be skinnier and more attractive and have cooler hair, I didn't want to be masculine. I didn't want to be feminine either - gender literally just never played a part in how I wanted to look. I never felt like I had to fit in with boys by acting masculine, or that girls worked differently from boys. I didn't think about gender.

I was 19 before I started to question my gender. I knew I didn't want to be a girl - some feminine things give me a lot of gender dysphoria, even today. I played Deltarune, which has a canonically non-binary main character, and became really hooked on every aspect of the game, including the main character's gender presentation. At first I thought "oh, awesome, non-binary representation", but then I realised that playing as and relating to a character with they/them pronouns was appealing to me.

I don't consider myself androgynous, because I don't try to steer away from a clear gender presentation. I'm masc presenting for the most part. I guess I fall under the umbrella term of non-binary, but I feel like that's too vague to describe my identity. When I say I'm agender, I mean that I am completely ambivalent to gender. I would happily wear a dress or a corset if I thought it looked good on me. I don't think about whether I will look feminine or masculine when I wear clothes. I have some clothes that I really like, that look like cool cloaks - and they provide absolutely nothing to my gender presentation. Gender exists, as a concept, but its not for me.