…because of the thing with the money. And then losing my wallet, and then one of my plushie friends. It’s only going to get worse. I really hope I die before it does.
And in a bit over a week from now it’ll be the 1 year anniversary of the last time I saw my friend, the one who won’t talk to me anymore. One down, the rest of my lifetime to go. I know I’ll never see them again and while I think I’m over the cringey weird shit, I still think about them pretty much every day and it hurts so fucking much.
You know I’ll never get a car or a minivan or whatever. Definitely not before this winter—it gets harder to cope with every fucking year.
Fuck.
$4000 is not that much money to be honest. The more poor you are, the harder it is to make money last. It's enough for a shit car, but not enough to insure it, pay for gas, pay for upkeep, etc, for even 2 years. This is a cool place and we still like you comrade. It's hard out there.
Real as fuck, even five digit values can just bleed away purely from essential purchases, even if you have income somehow.
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If you have literally nothing (no housing, no car, no family, no friends, no marketable skills), you honestly need at least $100k.