I’ve heard that the transition process can really change ones perspective on surgery and stuff which is why I keep an open mind. I don’t worry about it, but it’s very silly to have these internal contradictions. I was also very sure that I didn’t want any surgery at first lol but now I’m definitely open to it.

A few years ago when I was definitely very cis I dug into the rabbit hole of gender affirming surgery for trans men and was super fascinated by how advanced the industry is. I’m sure it was just my innocent curiosity and that it doesn’t say anything about my internally hidden desires :)