Yeah I don't get the "am I doing this for attention" type thoughts anymore. It's more like, Im just scared that I'm all wrong about myself because like no one sees it, no one expected it... And like whenever I say my chosen name people just give me this look like yeah whatever you say. Some people will even double take and be like seriously? And then bro me.

Internally I feel like me, and I feel like I'm pretty feminine but when no one sees that from the outside Its like really hard to take myself seriously or take seriously my thoughts and feelings. I really just want to be taken seriously by wider society and I'm just not.. I am forced to boy mode at work as a result because I don't think people would take me seriously if I came out and that's also slowly driving me to crazy