I'm not sure if I want to open myself up about "this". It's not because I feel vulnerable, but because some people might think less of me for it. In a way, it's showing someone a massive weak spot that could be used against me. So, while I'm writing this, it seems obvious to me that it is foolish. Yet still, I have a lingering urge to share some of these feelings.
Truthfully, I have never shared this with anyone. Not even in a therapy setting have I felt comfortable enough to do so. I did nothing illegal, so don't worry. Its also nothing sex related.
Hypothetical. Imagine I killed someone in self-defense. Even if people might be sympathetic, they would view me differently after I told them that. It would change my relationship with them. This is just an example for something that has the potential to greatly change the dynamic between people.
I DIDNT KILL SOMEONE.
Any input would be appreciated.
EDIT OK. I talked with someone about it. Feel a bit better. Probably wont disclose it on Hexbear but thanks for all the input.
If it's not illegal, the safest way to test the waters is to tell your therapist, since they wouldn't/couldn't disclose it. Or find a related support group for whatever you're ashamed of. You'd be surprised how granular such groups get.
The analogy of having a prominent nazi as a grandparent on its own wouldn't turn me against a person, though. But I'd tell that person to critically assess the way they were raised to excise any generational brain worms.