Got back from family vacation, got on the dreaded Facebook, found out the woman who was my first gf 12 years ago, and subsequently a friend I talked to pretty frequently, had died of liver failure at 33 years old.
Looking back on it, when she was drinking 12 years ago it just seemed like a fun time. I didn't know she sustained that pace for a decade plus. Some other things took a toll too, like an eating disorder.
Anyways, I am fuckin sad, fuck alcohol, it's as bad as heroin but capitalism gotta make that $$$$$
I had a much easier time quitting hard drugs than I've had quitting alcohol. It's so insidious, and so accepted to be an alcoholic. I really haven't faced many life consequences for my drinking in my life. Lots of health complications, but nothing the world threw at me.
Yeah I have done just about everything except crack and had years-long habits with a number of them. I had to piece together a new personally when I quit hard drugs. I quit cigs during COVID. But alcohol is just so baked into society and such an easy way to help cope with capitalism that I find it hard to imagine ever completely quitting drinking.
I'm an alcoholic and can casually smoke crack. It's got the immediate addiction aspect of any upper and you'll feel like getting more any time you don't have any, but really only the first hit is good and I've never wanted to blast more boulders the next day.
Yeah I've done enough [other things] that I've never felt like I was missing out not doing crack. But it is the one well-known substance that I've legit never bothered to do when I had the chance, and never sought out on its own.
I had some roommates that were older jeroim addicts who got on methadone only.cause covid hit, and basically if they happened to be going by where it was sold it'd be asked if anyone wanted to throw down and if I had some cash I would and we were all very share and share alike in most ways including drugs, so sometimes I'd just get a holler from down the hall asking if I wanted a hit of whatever.