I choose to invest in myself. I 🏴‍☠️bought🏴‍☠️a bunch of online courses on some technical stuff for computers and programming and I'm going to see if I can hack my way to a better job. There is so much to learn and the industry is always change so I'm looking to specialize in one language (C++ to exact) and try to increase the depth of my knowledge and skillset. My scheme is if I get at really good at one thing, I'll be able to do other things okay-ish because I have rich understanding of how the one thing works and how it relates to other things.

One of my big issues is that I struggle with is "you're not worth the effort" mindset, so I'm doing this totally on my own and my hope is that if I can get nice with C++ I can create opportunities for myself through my own skill and efforts (but not in the bootstraps way, more so in the I am good at a thing way). I think back to my eagerness of my undergraduate degree in computer science and how I just ate up every textbook or website I could find on programming. fast forward to now, I don't care about writing good code at work or even care about understanding how anything works, so long as it compiles, and I don't get yelled at so I'm fine. I want to keep that slacker-hacker mindset at work, but I want to get back into the hack into the matrix mindset I had when I initially began. I want to be good, for me because I'm worth being good for.

Also I bought a budget planner so I can track my spending by hand and hopefully get my money up and save for a rainy day.

I also got back into Street Fighter and it I'm re-learning how much I love fighting games, the depth and complexity is so robust and interesting that I feel much like the language programming thing is that if I get hella nice at USFIV I can translate that knowledge of systems and mechanics to any other fighter like something more modern like Guilty Gear Strive.

Overall I'm really happy with upward trajectory in several areas.