The withdrawal certainly isn't getting any better, but I think I'm really gonna be able to do it this time. I've been up since about 4 or 5, I just couldn't sleep very long at all. And I'm still pretty fuckin sick otherwise from withdrawal. But I went to 2 groups yesterday, and am about to attend another one this morning. My goal is to go to at least one everyday this week. I'm so tired of being stuck in a cycle of withdrawal, where one hard night of binging puts me back to being physically dependent almost immediately because of my past Phenibut addiction. I know I've posted here a million times about relapsing, but I really think this is gonna be the time that sticks and that excitement is keeping me going.
Yeah, I've been struggling with this for a long time. It won't come easily, but I really think this is gonna be the time that does it for me. Finding secular and healthy support groups has been great, even have one that's specifically for queer people! I'm definitely in the best place I could be to be sober.
Love and solidarity comrade