I woke up almost 3 hours earlier than usually, and pretty much immediately had to start going off on my doctor about my lexapro. Chilled for a while after, did small things around the house, napped, and just got back from a not-quite-practice sesh with the bands drummer. We mostly just hooked my amps up to different speakers and played with different gain pedals to get good tone for recording.
I dunno, things have just felt....off all day. Sitting in the twilight with the corgi rn and the feeling still hasn't gone away.
Oh well, I guess 
I'm really glad, going off antidepressants is painful
I don't even know
Just feels like I'm dying most of the time until I get too tired to worry anymore, then that restarts the next day
Don't know what to do about my ADHD anymore, person I was seeing doesn't wanna give stimulants and I tried everything else now lol
No money, no job, no hope, can't see my friends due to lack of money and willpower, time rapidly passing but seems like I can't do anything with it, feels like I'm lost in a mental fog most of the time, can't stop overeating, etc etc etc, only getting worse with each passing month
Sorry, this kinda getting to be a lot, don't feel like you have to reply ofc. Ate a lot of caffeine, only thing that kinda makes me functional, can't stop posting random shit :(
Holy shit I think we generally feel exactly the same. I had 2 monsters this afternoon so even down to the caffeine intake.
I ate 2 200 mg caffeine pills and a Monster today lol, can barely get out of bed without a caffeine pill anymore lmao
It's definitely bad for me but it seems like I can't stop
Am sorry to hear you feel the same :(
I hope it gets better, for both of us, not that I have any idea about how it can or if it actually will or what that would even look like and so on and so on but strange things do happen sometimes
Very doomer tonight
Shit just feels almost...cinematic, doesn't it? Or maybe I'm just disassociating a little and only like, half realize it? I dunno.
Yeah, I feel like I really need some sort of stimulant since I'm always so fucking tired.
Guess there's a show at my local bar tomorrow night, two of the staff members respective bands. It's 2 blocks from home, but since I can't really bring the pups to that environment (even tho it's a dog friendly bar we chill together at plenty, I don't wanna hurt their ears) I feel like I'm already starting to mentally set myself up to not go.
It kinda does sometimes but yeah maybe that's some kind of cope lol
That's so real :(
Always tired, sometimes anxious energy compels me to do things, about to go
with my friend maybe that help with feelings idk
It's sweet you're considering how they would like the noise
Can you go without them?
Give
to comrade Bailey and Barney for me (if that's not weird lol)
Will do! We all just had a nice walk, just got dark out and the crickets are chirping. I can def go to that show tomorrow without them, we'll see if I feel up to it. Might have to force myself, my therapist and I were talking about my "social cocoon" this week and it could be good to go.
Have fun with your friend! Hope you feel better!
It's 2 blocks you can visit your dogs between bands