I woke up almost 3 hours earlier than usually, and pretty much immediately had to start going off on my doctor about my lexapro. Chilled for a while after, did small things around the house, napped, and just got back from a not-quite-practice sesh with the bands drummer. We mostly just hooked my amps up to different speakers and played with different gain pedals to get good tone for recording.

I dunno, things have just felt....off all day. Sitting in the twilight with the corgi rn and the feeling still hasn't gone away.

Oh well, I guess shrug-outta-hecks

  • corgiwithalaptop [any, love/loves]
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    27 days ago

    Holy shit I think we generally feel exactly the same. I had 2 monsters this afternoon so even down to the caffeine intake.

    • PaX [comrade/them, they/them]
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      27 days ago

      yea Many such cases in this hellworld that we inhabit

      I ate 2 200 mg caffeine pills and a Monster today lol, can barely get out of bed without a caffeine pill anymore lmao

      It's definitely bad for me but it seems like I can't stop

      Am sorry to hear you feel the same :(

      I hope it gets better, for both of us, not that I have any idea about how it can or if it actually will or what that would even look like and so on and so on but strange things do happen sometimes

      Very doomer tonight doomjak

      • corgiwithalaptop [any, love/loves]
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        27 days ago

        Shit just feels almost...cinematic, doesn't it? Or maybe I'm just disassociating a little and only like, half realize it? I dunno.

        Yeah, I feel like I really need some sort of stimulant since I'm always so fucking tired.

        Guess there's a show at my local bar tomorrow night, two of the staff members respective bands. It's 2 blocks from home, but since I can't really bring the pups to that environment (even tho it's a dog friendly bar we chill together at plenty, I don't wanna hurt their ears) I feel like I'm already starting to mentally set myself up to not go.

        • PaX [comrade/them, they/them]
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          27 days ago

          Shit just feels almost...cinematic, doesn't it? Or maybe I'm just disassociating a little and only like, half realize it? I dunno.

          It kinda does sometimes but yeah maybe that's some kind of cope lol

          Yeah, I feel like I really need some sort of stimulant since I'm always so fucking tired.

          That's so real :(

          Always tired, sometimes anxious energy compels me to do things, about to go touch-grass with my friend maybe that help with feelings idk

          Guess there's a show at my local bar tomorrow night, two of the staff members respective bands. It's 2 blocks from home, but since I can't really bring the pups to that environment (even tho it's a dog friendly bar we chill together at plenty, I don't wanna hurt their ears) I feel like I'm already starting to mentally set myself up to not go.

          It's sweet you're considering how they would like the noise

          Can you go without them?

          Give headpat to comrade Bailey and Barney for me (if that's not weird lol)

          • corgiwithalaptop [any, love/loves]
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            27 days ago

            Will do! We all just had a nice walk, just got dark out and the crickets are chirping. I can def go to that show tomorrow without them, we'll see if I feel up to it. Might have to force myself, my therapist and I were talking about my "social cocoon" this week and it could be good to go.

            Have fun with your friend! Hope you feel better!