Ive been thinking more about making things. I have no space to do so, so its just fantasy for now, but i want to be productive in ways that are fun and/or genuinely help people. One thing ive been thinking about is making midi pads. I priced everything out and its not terribly expensive, and i could put custom midi pads/controllers in everyones hands who wants them. The real spendy stuff comes when you want velocity sensitive pads/buttons.
Ive also been doing a lot of programming recently, and its been pretty great! Been working on some metaobject stuff thats confusing, but in a fun way lol.
I had some serious anxiety this morning, and a really uh interesting night where the deluded thoughts just kept going and it was hard to keep them in check and managed. But things are better now; im just up, and like, up in a way that i feel is manageable. Is this what mentally healthy people feel like?
Making midi pads sounds like a fun project for sure! If you ever start doing it, let me know because I'd love one. I wanted an MPC really bad as a teen but never got one because they're so damn expensive.
I'm glad the code is keeping you entertained! I've been thinking about getting back into it because I had a lot of fun with it before depression really took over. Too bad I only ever really learned Java and JavaScript.
Mental stability is a great feeling. It comes and goes in waves, but those calms are really great
If you ever start doing it, let me know because I'd love one.
Ok what would you want in a midi pad? Number of controls and types, layouts, etc.? Ive been looking at ADC units and especially arduinos (not too keen on doing a 10000 unit order of ADCs lol) which have a multiplexed ADC, so 8 analog inputs plus i could do a grid of digital inputs. One thing I was thinking of was having midi note velocity controlled by a pot or encoder or something, or setting up groups of digital inputs with different velocities.
I've been thinking about getting back into it because I had a lot of fun with it before depression really took over.
code evangelizing
If you ever feel like getting into it again, I have never had more fun than with the programming language Common Lisp. Its weird, its old, its incredibly responsive. It has a really easy to understand syntax (imo) which makes code navigation a breeze. It was also doing LSP 30 years before LSP. Its what I love to write and it makes solving problems really easy imo. And if you write good code and use a smart compiler, it can be almost as fast as C (or as fast even, if you (declare (optimize (debug 0) (safety 0) (speed 3))))
Mental stability is a great feeling. It comes and goes in waves, but those calms are really great
Yeah ive been feeling functional again, and all i can think of is "cool, so im gonna fall back into a deep depression any day now, great, lovely, thats exactly what i wanted". And friends say "nah just find what hypes you up", which is a shitty invalidating answer. Makes me not want to be around them.
Id love to
Ive been thinking more about making things. I have no space to do so, so its just fantasy for now, but i want to be productive in ways that are fun and/or genuinely help people. One thing ive been thinking about is making midi pads. I priced everything out and its not terribly expensive, and i could put custom midi pads/controllers in everyones hands who wants them. The real spendy stuff comes when you want velocity sensitive pads/buttons.
Ive also been doing a lot of programming recently, and its been pretty great! Been working on some metaobject stuff thats confusing, but in a fun way lol.
I had some serious anxiety this morning, and a really uh interesting night where the deluded thoughts just kept going and it was hard to keep them in check and managed. But things are better now; im just up, and like, up in a way that i feel is manageable.
Is this what mentally healthy people feel like?
Making midi pads sounds like a fun project for sure! If you ever start doing it, let me know because I'd love one. I wanted an MPC really bad as a teen but never got one because they're so damn expensive.
I'm glad the code is keeping you entertained! I've been thinking about getting back into it because I had a lot of fun with it before depression really took over. Too bad I only ever really learned Java and JavaScript.
Mental stability is a great feeling. It comes and goes in waves, but those calms are really great
Ok what would you want in a midi pad? Number of controls and types, layouts, etc.? Ive been looking at ADC units and especially arduinos (not too keen on doing a 10000 unit order of ADCs lol) which have a multiplexed ADC, so 8 analog inputs plus i could do a grid of digital inputs. One thing I was thinking of was having midi note velocity controlled by a pot or encoder or something, or setting up groups of digital inputs with different velocities.
code evangelizing
If you ever feel like getting into it again, I have never had more fun than with the programming language Common Lisp. Its weird, its old, its incredibly responsive. It has a really easy to understand syntax (imo) which makes code navigation a breeze. It was also doing LSP 30 years before LSP. Its what I love to write and it makes solving problems really easy imo. And if you write good code and use a smart compiler, it can be almost as fast as C (or as fast even, if you
(declare (optimize (debug 0) (safety 0) (speed 3))))Yeah
ive been feeling functional again, and all i can think of is "cool, so im gonna fall back into a deep depression any day now, great, lovely, thats exactly what i wanted". And friends say "nah just find what hypes you up", which is a shitty invalidating answer. Makes me not want to be around them.