I'm going to find a professional out there in my area who can listen to all my concerns about stuff like diagnosing/dealing with AuDHD, talking about dealing with family stuff, and just my general desire to be a better person/communicate better. I don't think I can just indefinitely keep my problems inside the way I've been doing.
I would recommend a therapist! Although keep in mind that the first therapist you meet might not be the best fit for you (I went through several until I found someone I had productive sessions with). It takes time and energy but the long term benefits are definitely worth it
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I know. It's kinda been discouraging to think about but, I have to start somewhere. The one I had in college listened but, then couldn't really offer the best feedback.