I'm going to find a professional out there in my area who can listen to all my concerns about stuff like diagnosing/dealing with AuDHD, talking about dealing with family stuff, and just my general desire to be a better person/communicate better. I don't think I can just indefinitely keep my problems inside the way I've been doing.
I would recommend a therapist! Although keep in mind that the first therapist you meet might not be the best fit for you (I went through several until I found someone I had productive sessions with). It takes time and energy but the long term benefits are definitely worth it
my version of this was that my therapist was actually p. decent but i had to take a break because i stopped doing the work and then after like a year of not benefiting from therapy at all i better understood what i needed immediate help with and then was more motivated to do the work the second time
I know. It's kinda been discouraging to think about but, I have to start somewhere. The one I had in college listened but, then couldn't really offer the best feedback.